” Teacher teaches”
A senior highschool student’s experience
Have you ever think deeply and realize, “hindi naman ako ganito dati”. This sentence make sense, when I got the right teacher. Someone who is just an ordinary and now becomes one of the most warfreak student. Totoo nga yung sinasabi nila na someone will change or maybe something. You will become different from the person that they know more than before. Ganito nga balaga ako? Is this really what I’ve chose?
I’ve been in school, but being a student of Senior highschool for me is different. Way back in elementary, you can see me as no one. A little young heart that is innocent to do such awful thing. I can look and listen to the old one’s. I can be a nice classmate. From the first day of the class until it ends. ” The most obedient of the year, goes to Leramae”, the teacher declares. I’ve been used to it. That every recognition, I have used to received meritorious and the most obedient wossshh* I got that sigh. I’ve been so boring and loner. Later, I realizes how it is to be higher than that and at the same time how to enjoy life.
Highschool goes on, this is the time I met my brat friends and also met my self. We enjoy strolling and absolutely do cheating. It started in our grade 9 days. When our terror teacher give us long quizz yet she didn’t even discuss anything. Bad genius strikes. I do memorizing this part while the other memorize the other part. Do the signing. Hands off, feet gestures. That’s our strategy. Woahhhh* And the result was great. We got highest scores. For us, the yells and punishment that comes from our teachers and parents are just useless. Words are just air that comes in our ear. For that, we still the same, we enjoy this kind of thing and we always find some places to go out. No good, no manners, no right and no conduct. Until I came to my reflection.
I still question myself several times ” ako ba talaga ito?”,”hindi naman ako ganito dati”. There was a teacher came to make us reflect. I don’t know why I am hurting. This time, words are not just air. They are swords that’s hitting my personality. I’ ve been used to hear utterly bad description about our behavior.But this time, it’s different. He keep calm while giving us the lesson. He is just being nice while making us learn. He is not just a teacher of any subject matters but he teaches us how to have an attractive behavior that will make us success in the future. This teacher is now part of my Senior highschool experience.
The series of my little best fantasy
I saw an expensive big cabinet. There, full of luxuries, jewelries that I’ve wrote on my bucket list. Then I turned around looking at my new dresses at the closet. Lying on my comfortable bed. There are everything I need. It was a valentine for me. Sadness has no space in me. Everything was in complete when I’m on my world of fantasy.
And I woke up like this. A very sorrow morning. I shouldn’t greey you for waking me up into my greatest lucid dream. So, let’s talk about me. After a long period of thinking, I am now proceeding my 18 years of age. . I’m in millenial generation which has very high standard and technology. Yes, I am on my 18 years of existing yet legal age is not the right term for it. How am I suppose to say that I’m on my legal age if my parents did not even treat me legally? No cellphone, no boyfie coz what matters most is your lufe studies. As my mom told me “It is the only treasure that I can inherit for you”. I am obligue for what our situation is, so I’ll stand for it.
Everything was a vice- versa. Eat, sleep and so on. I seems so alone and bored yet I feel challenged at all. Judgemental person look at me as a strict and wild spoiled brat. They judge me as if they know all about me. Sometimes they may think that I’m always on the go with my friends strolling around. They made me the person who I’m not really is. I tried to be doomed, but I guess I cannot last it. I can’t let that in just one click and it all splash.
Because of all judgements, I tried to bring back my yesterdays. I know that they don’t know me at all because I guess they don’t deserve to know. I just named all the person that I want to know me best. I tried to be aware to talk and communicate to someone. What if, I definite myself as one of those what they judge about me? And a result I have an indeed bad personality that can freely criticize someone else and snob them yet I have also the good side. As I know, nobody is perfect, and I accept my imperfections. It’s because this is the real me and God accepted those. He loves me not for my mistakes, not for judgement and not only for fun. God loves me for who I really am. So I can afford with it. Lavan lang!
I have tried my best to fulfill my goal to make my parents proud of me. And I swear, my 95% of best is useless for the 5% of my mistakes. I wish, someone will grab me up and encourage me to do better, to become a perfect daughter. I am wishing for a fairy Godmother who made a simple person who become a cheerful and perfect princess. Just like in fairytale, princess is precious and here comes the knight protecting his object. A prince charming who will find me ’til we met our happy ending. You can see, I’m an ordinary person yet I have an extraordinary dream. I may have small background yet I have bigger standard.
Later, I met the persons that can feel me at home. God sent them as a representative for my family and they considered me as one. I can tell them my long journey. My every sorrow and my every happiness.
You cannot fly unless you let yourself fall. To dream big is to start small. These words that they have told, made me the person I wanna be. I’ve seen the as a person that is willing to accept for who they are. It’s right, they are just like to that. But because of what they are just, I learned to be contented for who I am and for what I have. They are my friends. In just one call, they will be there.
A wishful thinker would imagine after entering their exits. There will be a magical and interesting journey that would really happen. I could freely enter the University that I have dreamt on. The course that is perfectly for me is on my course. This will be the part which my mother will be proud of me. She will be nice and good to me. As I walk slowly at the eisle, I can see my whole family supporting me. All of my friends are there with my future husband, waiting for me to come up on stage. I wear a very deep smile that cannot be seen in fairytale but only in reality. As the emcee proclaimed ” the Summa Cum Laude of certified public Acountant from MSU-IIT”, all the audince were applaused . While I, receiving my degree and thank the most gracious God who planned for this.
Fall and you will Fly 